Death…
Friday, September 8th, 2006***Warning***…the contents of this blog may be disturbing to some people. Read at your own discretion.
Sorry ppl…but I just had to release this thought…it’s killing me~~. Do pray for me though, I’d really appreciate that. Thanks.
Ever wonder what death is like? While I have experienced the death of several friends within the past 5 years, I have never encountered "death" itself literally until today. It was a devastating feeling…and just so indescribable. I felt the actual grip of "death" coming and snatching the life out of my patient, and there was nothing I could do but to stand there and be a spectator to this tragedy.
Having known Mrs. H through her numerous visits to the clinic, and getting to talk to her personally…she just seemed like a really nice and Godly lady. Everything she ever said just made so much sense to me, or even the others around the clinic and sometimes she would be our healer instead…spiritually and mentally. Yet as she came crashing through the doors clutching her chest, gasping for air while seemingly agonizing in pain…all we could do was watch the clutches of "death" slowly sucking the life out of her. Of course, we tried all that we could to resuscitate her, but I could feel the looming of "death" in the room…just ready to clasp her soul and take it away. There was NOTHING that I could do.
True…that people say when death is here, you have nowhere to hide. No matter how we tried to save her, when "death" is in the room…even the mightiest of doctors could not save her from the clutches of "death". Man…never before have I experienced this…yes…I have had friends who died…but I have never been there personally to see them being grasped by the hands of "death"…not that I ever hope to. But this experience is glued in my mind so hard…and knowing that I will experience more of this scenario in the near future, it somehow does not help in comforting me. Sometimes I just wonder if doctors/nurses will turn psycho over time…should this occur frequently in their lives? And sometimes…I just don’t understand why God created death…I mean…I know the explanations in the bible…but in a situation like this…one cannot help…but to wonder.
Death…what is death? Where is death? Why is there death?
